Time to Confess

WOW.....FINALLY I take a step to start a blog site.  It's been part of a dream (part of a VERY LARGE dream), but it seems as if Life has been way too busy for me to settle down and start talking.  It hasn't helped that every time I begin to write I draw a complete blank, it almost feels as if there's just too much to say to fit into one post.  I've always been one to use words (many, MANY words) to express myself, whether through written word, spoken word or song.....I will use whatever outlet I can to tell my story.  For many years I've wanted to write a book about my life, but I've found it extremely hard to go back and begin writing about the past when there was so much going on in the present. And you can forget predicting the future because each time I think I have it all figured out, my life takes a turn in a very different direction.

Who is Jen, you may ask?  I like to think of myself as a simple kind of gal, though many would say I'm an individual with many complex layers.  I believe in the whole 60's revolution, from the music to the overall message of humanity (aka "Make love not war").  I believe that love is the answer to many of the issues in our society today.  I believe in redemption and second chances, I believe in forgiveness and compassion to even our worst enemy.  I believe in dreams come true and I believe in a little thing called Faith.  I am a 35 year old mother of four (two are my step daughters).  I am divorced and have recently been remarried to a man I was friends with in High School (odd how things can change over the course of 15 years).  I am a "medically retired" former employee of a corporate insurance giant.  I live with a heart disease that has attempted to take me from this world two times over the past year and a half, but by the grace of God alone I can boldly say I am a SURVIVOR. 

There is no rhyme or reason to this blog other than to have an outlet to voice my own perceptions of life and share my pursuit of happiness.  I am a dreamer, with all of my heart I believe that Dreams really can come true.  For so long now I've not been confident enough in my ability to achieve that Dream and I've remained frozen in place by fears of failure, but there came a day where I had to say enough is enough, it's time to move forward.  I call this blog "Confessions Of An Unruly Mind".  I invite you to join in this journey with me.  My hope is that these "confessions" will somehow inspire another.  I have a saying...."It only takes one entity to spark the flames of Humanity"......I want to be one who starts the wildfire.

Here's to stepping, friends.